Saturday, July 31, 2010

Dead and withered

-Inhale air exhales air-

Its called breathing. HAHA.
Lol. Wtfh~ OTL

All I wanted to do right now is just to draw and keep drawing.
I realised too that I'v only touched Voltaire and be with him for about less than 10 times.
And considering how I can sleep with him anddddd he sits beside me all teh time.
Eh... (_ _)
GOMEN Voltaire!
Omg, and I dont even have the skills in teh first place to do anything with him. T_T


Murni send me a message to support her art work. And I am actually feeling proud of her! HAHA I don;t know why though. And her work is really nice.
Go support...

After looking through her work, I have a will... to full fill my dreams too.
I have a lot of dreams. Well, not exactly A LOT. But many...

1) World domination.
Oh yes. But I dont want to dominate the world with ummm... a direct ruling ettc.
Actually, it will only be sort of from how my life would one day be a HUGE MEGANOUMOUS influence to EVERY SINGLE BEING ON EARTH.
Well, like Lacus Clyne. Yeah like that.
But this dream came to me when I was in Kindergarden. So Gundam wasn;t there yet to shoot ideas -more ideas XDD- at me. =DDD

2) Travelling
Yep, who doesnt want to travel around teh world.
Russia, Japan, Korea, HK, NZ, All of Europe *_________*
HAHAHA -bricks self-

3) Open a public gallery
Since when I was in primary school, yeah I dreamt of this.
Its a prelude to world domination actually.

4) An artist A performer
This.... is worth laughing at.
I mean... my singing and acting and public speaking skills is... NIL
Rofl. I cant even perform.
So.. THIS~ Will always be a dream.
Yep This is a dream ;D
Its sort of come together hand in hand with opening a publi gallery and world domination. =3 =
But after my degree, I will take steps to realise to be an atrist.
I DO want to paint and draw forever.
Im happy doing that.
Then of course, it isn;t only restricted to fine arts, there is a WHOLE world out there.
So many branches extending from the root of Art. -loves-
Writing is art too~ performing is too.... etc etc
dokun dokun dokun

5) Open an Inn
hahaha read too much books and watch too much movies.

Oh yes, and I wont see this coming.
Applied for relief teaching(so not full time bah XD)
And the application got tru and accepted by moe. So...
Now I will need to go and contact (email) schools to request for vacciencies (YEA REQUEST >D)
for a relief teacher. Pray I can get a school or a few schools. This is my last few resorts already D:

And I want or more like really need to purchse a set of Studio Ghibli movies.
Will always give me motivation to keep on moving and inspiration.
Hope and hearts. Sadness, despair and yet a smile.


Monday, July 26, 2010


I was really expecting a rejection letter.
But does things go my way?
Nooo... of cos not.
Not at all...
The letter that arrived was, the letter of acceptance.

-dramas and despairs-

Oh my gosh...
now the bugger problem~ Mooleh~

-seaweed dance-

Part time job hunting again.
Yeah.. i stopped hunting, cos I really believed in rejection.
(o ^ _ ^ o)
so... now my mother is offering me a job like her...
i dont know if im cut for the job ^^;
Its teaching...


What the heck...
Just because of my personality, she says i would make a perfect teacher.
Oh yes... she is right.
Oh and... its not my outside personality.
==; my outdoors personality CMI to be teacher.
I am just afraid that in the classroom, i forgot to change out of my outside personality.
Hurr~ very assuring.
Homg, since i will be walking in my mother's path, i have to work million times harder.
She have outstanding positive comments and is a great teacher.
Oh dear... can i make it? D:

Maybe i shall just give it a go... See how. Whether i die or survive~ ;D

ah and now that i am back in school, to stay a cosplayer is tough.
Not talking about time and management, but convinving my father that it is perfectly safe to let me cosplay still. This time, i promise i wont slack/give 90% effort into hobbies and 1% into studies and remaining be swallowed by black hole.

I need to do it....




And AFA this year will clash with my first exam and Raya Haji..
Prays that AFA is after 26November.


I really dont want to back up on AFA plans...
Like promoised xuyun to do RingCon and with 0A do R.Garden.

Oh my gosh...
I will study hard father...
Just dont take away the things i treasure doing.


I will edit pictures.

Sunday, July 18, 2010


Im loving Bourne movie series all over again!
Wooo! XDD
Like soo amazing. EVERYTHING ISH HEARTS! *_*


and i sort of miss going around in mall aimlessly...

Monday, July 12, 2010

Brass Buttons

Stitch 1

Yay, shall upload really slowly...

Frodo up first ;D

Samwise as Jenn (whut? =A=;)

picking more pics....

lalala.... ~^_^~

Glass Yarn


Shoot for Jenn and Fer again.

This time with Yuu.

Start around noon then until 6+

Honestly, I felt that the its is as usual or even more stressful. Haha.
Posing sucks.
Carefree ftw D:

And got the jacket pictures.

Hmm... missed out on
1)Going to shoot at helix
2)Measuring tape shoot
3)Weird structures places shoot

Quite depressing...

Hurr~ but luckily before yesterday, just Jenn and Fer self shoot at art museum.
Security guard on duty at that point of time, omg i hearts joo!!!!!!

-bows bows bows-

Then yestderday, when we went there again... we aer not allowed to shoot..
And there is a price for shoot.
$170 for 3 short hours.

LOL? Tax ar? WTH.

and 4H gathering was also cancelled last minute.
Nice one guys.... When I can make it... its cancelled. When I cannot make it, it happens.

And im tired of everything....
except my interests.

So.. im editing some pictures now...
Next post will spam pics again. Hurr~

When I reached home yest, my mother told me to email my cousin my resume..
She gonna give it to her boss... and job is lab and date entry...

im scared.
Im not ready for the evil world yet...
Then again, MUST hold your fear with both sweaty hands U___U

and the thing is...
I know i am not afraid of heights...
But why am i when im at those places?

I am afraid of getting afraid...
Yeah... i know i am afraid of getting afraid..
So maybe i thought that i am gettimg afraid.. then i got afraid because i might get afraid...

Thursday, July 8, 2010


Day 1

Did Shinn Asuka from Gundam Seed Destiny

And Day 2 Jennifer

For more info, please visit my LJ instead. Haha I am too lazy to retype here.

So i guess its picture spam?


I know... Im damn chui right~

I need to up camwhore XP

and at cosfest, my 2011 plans got beaten.

I saw
1) Motochika

Hmm... The vrsion i was planning to d0 was SW2 but seh did a SW3 version.
And i think it is nice. Though not topless and too little gradient.
But i still think it is nice.
Now need to do Taigong for EOY even strongly. WHAHHAHA

2) Masahiro

Shounen onmyouji.
But no Mokken. And not the version i want to do.
The version i want to do is the final version. With teh sword of Suzaku.
I know. Its A LOT of stuff T___T

3) Ginshu

From one of my favourite animes, Amatsuki -hearts-


Go shades~ -wiggly dance-

On Wednesday,

went out to hunt for vanity galsses and shades. -omg im so vain-
Nah, its becsuse...
Tm Rev would say...'take gd care of yourself'

So i will love myself.
-hearts- lol, so weird... =A=


now stop it and get on to what i was going to say...

got red yarn too... for clothrd photoshoot on Sat.
and then mizu told me abt Stage sale.

Nice timing, i also need new concealer and foundation. i never had a foundaiton before.
So, went there to panic before randomly pick tubes from teh shelves.

in the end, manage to survive the shop.
Im sooo weak.. Tsk tsk...

in teh end, no shoot on friday.. so all push to sat.
Oh my...
Now on sat i shall be very not free... buseh~

First CAF trainings
then photoshoot
then maybe TGX... (maybe) - i am willing ot scrape going to tgx actually. even scrape cosing as gokudera to tgx =3 =
then after that, going 4h outing at that ferris wheel. i 4gt the name is what.

So... woo... confrim KO when reach home.
Right now, still post event exhaustion.. actually it because of throat infection and rashes on neck and face too..
I feel soo useless and puffy T^T

urgh, so uncomfortable... -sob sob-

Thursday, July 1, 2010



Now too tired to do anything. Ktnksbye.

Yay, now continue beacause i feel liek typing lots of stuff... But OT ones. OTL

Right, this post supposedly for a quick Taigong shoot..
haha guess where ist taken?

The temple a few blocks away from my house...
Sure it doesnt seem so. XD

The weather is odd.
and i changed in public ;D

after bright sunny day, it pours!
Like rained really heavily without any warning.
and have to save my costume.. cos water colour and pastel are not waterproof.

enough gibber... here are some pictures:

note, costume at this point is only 80% done T^T
But not bad ar... only my face got problem.. haha